thru

not anymore -

gave myself till last night & last night is gone.

the circle is full & now it's closed. 

stared at my reflection in the mirror & wondered how

i could be passed off -

not once

but twice. 

stared at my reflection in the mirror & wondered how

i had thus let myself go.

not anymore. 

feelings fool & are fools,
but i'll be the biggest if i didn't know
truly how much i'm worth.
& i know.

picking up

rested & ready to run again.

spent my night doing up my belated summer reflection - am determined more than ever to not let the experiences & above all the confidence i'd gained from over the summer to go to waste. i will invest in my education, i will be the very best i can be.

here's the familiar feeling i thought i'd forgotten

inches steep in backlogged work but all i can only bring myself to do almost every night is sit at utown green & wish i had someone to hold me in times like these. and to think i thought i had enough happiness to fuel me for this entire semester. giving myself a hiatus before i get my act together again.

don't want to reach out to anyone bc it's not fair but i do, i do, i do.