"seems that I've been held in some dreaming state / a tourist in the waking world, never quite awake"
in another apathetic mood, but perhaps this is a godly kind of apathy
carving into my heart
echoes of the lord's tenacity for the Greater promise
the lord is my shepherd, I shall
not
want
nothing has changed since the tables were turned, yet it feels like it's either nothing changed at all, or everything has changed since then
I rather not delude myself
than live in a blissful bubble for a night, convincing myself nothing changed
only to prick the thin cloth of a facade
& fall into the trenches again
into the receiving arms of the cajoling devil
whispering "how can the lord love you when he takes away the things closest to home"
dragging
me
away
from the Reason which
i gained when I lost
all the things that are not of You,
lord I lift them up
this world has nothing for me
(time has barely done its job of negating pain, but more of jesus & less of me // Abba, I belong to You)
Saturday, 17 November 2012
Friday, 16 November 2012
paperbacks
had a most pleasurable afternoon
celebrating the bunny's (or should I say, mrs. bennet's) end of the O levels with chilli cheese fries & a baked broccoli with cheese potato, scouring the classics section of times, hiding favourite book prospects with the ingenious inversion method, lamenting over ugly yet really reasonable classic book covers, ordering pride & prejudice in puffin classics' famous orange paperbacks (!!! I am beyond thrilled), making a deal not to touch p&p until friday when it arrives (then groaning over the probable prospect of getting over dear mr. darcy), contemplating over getting another jane austen's novel before deciding on 'persuasion', getting drawn in by the 3 for 2 offer & the precious 'emma' paperback
& lastly, walking out of the store
determined to pack our bookshelves
which
I will
do now.
goodbye
(m o n d a y)
celebrating the bunny's (or should I say, mrs. bennet's) end of the O levels with chilli cheese fries & a baked broccoli with cheese potato, scouring the classics section of times, hiding favourite book prospects with the ingenious inversion method, lamenting over ugly yet really reasonable classic book covers, ordering pride & prejudice in puffin classics' famous orange paperbacks (!!! I am beyond thrilled), making a deal not to touch p&p until friday when it arrives (then groaning over the probable prospect of getting over dear mr. darcy), contemplating over getting another jane austen's novel before deciding on 'persuasion', getting drawn in by the 3 for 2 offer & the precious 'emma' paperback
& lastly, walking out of the store
determined to pack our bookshelves
which
I will
do now.
goodbye
(m o n d a y)
Friday, 9 November 2012
"carpe diem"
almost one year late but I am so glad that I chose to watch 'dead poets society (1989)' today
haven't bawled like a baby over a movie ever since 'hachiko- a dog's tale (2009)' last year & what really surprised me was despite a pretty orthodoxical plot (in my opinion), when expressed in the realm of literature & the battle against conformity, I think I died a little inside even before Neil put a bullet through himself
watching this movie really affirms the conviction to take literature as subject next year
why not when my heart throbbed when mr keating said "this is a battle, a war, and the casualties could be your hearts and souls", when it flew along with todd as he threw "the world's first unmanned flying desk set"
am I a "man" or an "amoeba"?
can't see myself struggling through two years of wishing that "carpe diem" sank through the convoluted waterways of my confused state
not going to do a personal review on it because the mediocrity of my review & inability to do the movie justice through accurate linguistic expression will just undermine the movie as a whole
virgin experience at kino today, got lost on my way there & inside
but for once the idea of getting both physically & cognitively lost
was actually really nice
it's the kind of "lost" that i want to befriend
spent fifteen minutes looking up at the shelves containing dostoevsky's works
bemoaning the lack of 'the brothers karamazov' in paperback
& contemplating over 'notes from the underground' or 'the gambler'
chose the former instead & I am really excited to enter the heart of philosophical debates about the human condition (according to the review), it's the only kind of philosophy I'll be interested in (pretty funny how we all termed "philo" lessons in school as "pillow" haha)
turns out, the bunny has the novel too!
love how we don't even try
malay papers went pretty okay today (I think), hopefully all will be well (especially lc which comes across as gibberish to me because I absolutely cannot comprehend it spoken at a bullet-train pace)
I can finally do what I deem fit
John keating: 'Now we all have a great need for acceptance, but you must trust that your beliefs are unique, your own, even though others may think them odd or unpopular, even though the herd may go (imitating a goat) "that's baaaaad."
Robert Frost said "two roads diverged in the wood & I, I took the one less travelled by, and that has made all the difference".'
haven't bawled like a baby over a movie ever since 'hachiko- a dog's tale (2009)' last year & what really surprised me was despite a pretty orthodoxical plot (in my opinion), when expressed in the realm of literature & the battle against conformity, I think I died a little inside even before Neil put a bullet through himself
watching this movie really affirms the conviction to take literature as subject next year
why not when my heart throbbed when mr keating said "this is a battle, a war, and the casualties could be your hearts and souls", when it flew along with todd as he threw "the world's first unmanned flying desk set"
am I a "man" or an "amoeba"?
can't see myself struggling through two years of wishing that "carpe diem" sank through the convoluted waterways of my confused state
not going to do a personal review on it because the mediocrity of my review & inability to do the movie justice through accurate linguistic expression will just undermine the movie as a whole
virgin experience at kino today, got lost on my way there & inside
but for once the idea of getting both physically & cognitively lost
was actually really nice
it's the kind of "lost" that i want to befriend
spent fifteen minutes looking up at the shelves containing dostoevsky's works
bemoaning the lack of 'the brothers karamazov' in paperback
& contemplating over 'notes from the underground' or 'the gambler'
chose the former instead & I am really excited to enter the heart of philosophical debates about the human condition (according to the review), it's the only kind of philosophy I'll be interested in (pretty funny how we all termed "philo" lessons in school as "pillow" haha)
turns out, the bunny has the novel too!
love how we don't even try
malay papers went pretty okay today (I think), hopefully all will be well (especially lc which comes across as gibberish to me because I absolutely cannot comprehend it spoken at a bullet-train pace)
I can finally do what I deem fit
John keating: 'Now we all have a great need for acceptance, but you must trust that your beliefs are unique, your own, even though others may think them odd or unpopular, even though the herd may go (imitating a goat) "that's baaaaad."
Robert Frost said "two roads diverged in the wood & I, I took the one less travelled by, and that has made all the difference".'
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