stupid

i feel like i should castigate myself for going against the circuit of my being

i was so close, yet i stupidly chose to follow in the footsteps of rationality
unabashed of kidding myself
i should have known to follow my heart, this is how i am crafted to be
stupid stupid stupid

a few cautious words from loved ones: "don't act on impulse"
but i don't even know if i'm striking while the iron is hot
on the mechanism of imprudence, because i'm not evaluating the situation enough,
or if i was so wrong to overthink, i was so wrong to act prudently

is this "impulse" the effect of accumulated agony?
i honestly don't know

leaving the outcome into Your hands,
i will be where You will me to be


df reh tmrw, we may not be the best, but we had fun
& that is honestly the crux of an IHC, am so glad to have been a part of this
(we fight, for purple & black, we fight
for hadley hullett we fight--
HU HUTALU BINGU BINGU)