for this final year i just want to channel all my efforts into investing in things and people who truly matter to me, to constantly ask myself the question: "does this bring me closer to where i want to be in the future?"
it is difficult having to constantly fight against the feeling that i left behind a world that was so real only to be mired in a faux one again - a pseudo world that ironically still has the ability to make me feel incredibly lacking. coming "home" to a displaced world that no longer feels like home. there are only so few people that i actually really like, relative to the sea of acquaintances or nameless faces. something that i learned in freshman year was to stop caring about the 80% of people who do not matter, & focus on the 20% who really do. the 20% of people who light up a warm fireplace in my heart. if i had to pinpoint the starting point of my growth it would be that moment. it was when i truly started soaring, & i've not looked back since. quality over quantity. friends over networks.
more than two years ago i started incorporating the gym into my life routine bc i was so angry, so furious at the world for telling me via its various manifestations that i wasn't worthy enough - through boys, professors and toxic people in a collapsed organization that no longer means much anymore. two years later and i still revisit that anger every time one foot precedes the other on the treadmill. i will return stronger, smarter, and infinitely more beautiful.
all else is noise.
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