i want to take time to remind myself that the workings of this world are beyond my control - but i do have agency in my response to the world and i should neither deny nor undermine myself of that power. i am still empowered to chase after alternative options and i also have the power to determine whether i'd let this episode cloud my work ethic and values.
i remember a pivotal moment in 2016 where i was so emotionally spent working with toxic people and bending over backwards to get a particular political conference in order - there was a particular girl on my team of three who was not pulling her weight at all in the lead up to the conference, and who even had the audacity to do a no-show on the actual day when i could have used an extra pair of helping hands. i was pulled on all sides and frustrated to the point of tears. but i remember telling myself that i still had a choice - i could let her trash work ethic affect the way i viewed mine and do a slipshod job just bc she was doing it as well, or i could stay true to my intrinsic values. i made a choice that day - my work ethic is my work ethic and no one will be able to take that away from me.
why do i do the work that i do, and who is it for?
circling back to the fundamental purpose that i keep losing sight of - every piece of work is Your work. i am here to do Your work and to do it well, such that people see You when they look at me - they will see Your hand moving in everything that i do and they will know: i am set apart bc i am of You.
