thankful

i had the most splendid two days in a long while


friday: faremel with the cell

the holidays make me inclined to recoil into my comfortable, introspective shell: where all i have to do is crawl back into my own skin. the product of propriety means exercising facial muscles against their will, which can get extremely tiring especially when those very voices are the perpetrator for spinning walls & dull, throbbing headaches. hence, in all honesty, my opinion of "faremel" was relatively far from sanguine- the prospect of having to interact with a big group of people was exhausting in itself, but i am so so glad i went, because i need to remember that this is how love feels like.

spent the afternoon + night with a very spechul bunch of god's people. only limtay would lengthen a bunch of helium balloons till they shot beyond a high ceiling (& seemed to go on for infinity). only limtay would let go that seemingly infinite string of balloons with a straight face while singing frozen's let it go. only limtay would treat a bunch of balloons like they were flying a kite. only limtay would pretend they were shooting a vogue photoshoot in the middle of a muddy field with a slight drizzle. only limtay would do whatever they felt like doing at that moment, even if they marred the public's first impression of them. so many things that only limtay would venture to do, so many queer things that make this cell an unorthodox one (in other words, extremely attractive because unconventionality is attractive)

this is why my cell is so spechul: (all photo credits to zann the amazing resident photographer who captured every single light-hearted moment because it's the little things that speak the loudest)

(disclaimer: it's a jacket underneath bcuz santa has a belly)

hpbd hunz

(zxnn.weebly.com)

interacting was tiring, but what pulled at my heartstrings was that almost everyone was as tired as i was at the end of the day - that even though we are seemingly unique in so many different ways, (most of us) felt the same things & could empathise with one another on something so subjective as personality types. it is always a warm feeling to be able to understand without trying.

ohana: so thankful

today:

chinese combined christmas service today has reminded me how meaningful chinese worship songs are - when english words have been overused until they are spent, trying to describe god's love in another language becomes rather novel

brought sh for service today & it is one of the things i am thankful for,
for more reasons than one

today also reminded me of fop'11- 6.8.11 which was the watershed moment of my life

在那黑暗中与祢同行

让我纪念祢的恩典