ambivalence

what if inside out were real & sometimes we can't put a finger to what we are feeling bc some of our crucial core memories have been misplaced & sucked out via the memory tube into god knows where  & our personality islands are crumbling into the memory dump one by one but outside we are still oblivious to the hullabaloo that is happening inside (i.e. joy & sadness have set on a treacherous journey & are lost in islands long forgotten inside ourselves & trying to make it back before the last personality island sinks into the abyss) yet only painfully aware that we are feeling confused & feeling everything all too hard at once.