all hail jap lit part III

i can hardly contain myself electronically leafing through book despository at nearly 2am in the morning without feeling the urge to add every single jap lit book that i don't own to my cart; maybe it is the night that makes me incredibly sentimental all over again but my heart is crying out with love for this beautiful, almost incorporeal creature which has impressed itself on my heart more than any guy has (ever) done so in probably my life time. (i think its subtlety is like poison that kills me inside slowly)

chanced upon this quote in my infatuation & the effect on myself was like a single spark on kerosene:

"time is what matters. as time goes by, you & i will be carried inexorably into the mainstream of our period, even though we're unaware of what it is. and later, when they say that young men in the early taisho era thought, dressed, talked in such & such a way, they'll be talking about you & me. we'll all be lumped together....in a few decades, people will see you & the people you despise as one & the same, a single entity."

(spring snow, yukio mishima) 

i am still quite awed at how (specifically) jap lit astutely puts into words vague impressions/thoughts/emotions that i have never found fit to express them through my own medium - for fear that they would be misapprehended // that i would owe these ideas their due justice. it is just so incredibly beautiful?? also, just like how p&p of 2k12 was the object of camaraderie between b.j.& i, jap lit is its successor in sealing this bond of divine friendship that has lasted for over ten + years (& in faith, many more to come). in fact, the memory of our recent walk in the park at dusk with spazzkid's truly in our ears makes me feel warm now as much as it had felt surreal then) 

also, since i am at it, this is my company for the night:

IV from emmuree on 8tracks Radio.

on a sidenote: i may look apathetic about my own racial group in contrast but i promise that i am still trying to give it a chance despite the agony that emanates from the clamor of cny songs blaring from hidden speakers. i have been watching disney's mulan during my free time & i can safely say that it is easily my favourite disney movie, partly bc of the chinese element that renders it unorthodox (from other disney movies). however, i must admit that it is more so bc mulan is such a strong, independent woman & is loved for being one, which i think is really important.

p.s: forgive the abrupt change in font (again), i've tried but it turns out blogger & 8tracks are kind of incompatible tgt