the world could do with more love

have never been one to be moved by the news ever since five year old me huddled in a bedroom with my family watched a plane crash into the twin towers on the news - perhaps bc the bad stuff had always seemed so geographically distant from my position of perceived safety. but being here & seeing the entire nation rocked by the aftershock of the orlando shooting - i've always been neutral about the entire lgbtq issue (not perceiving it as inherently wrong but not entirely right either i.e. constant confusion about how god fits into this overarching picture & how if he does then is it still biological or shaped by environmental factors??) but this morning i awoke with a heavy heart at the press' release of more detailed news trying to make sense of this entire hullabaloo & shed a tear or two bc the world could really do with so much more love. & replaying the white house's address just to hear president obama voicing out what is so important "the shooter targeted a nightclub where people came together to be with friends, to dance and to sing, and to live" - to live, how that word rings empty through the vestiges of life itself, thinking to myself, just leave them be, leave them in their place of "solidarity and empowerment"; we are all entitled to our own opinions, just as they (as human beings) are entitled to theirs.  

i'd always loved scrolling through fb to laugh at stupid videos but recently all i see are videos which make my heart heavy.